nothingness

i'm worn out mentally, mostly from my own voluntarily stress and brain-strain (the car died and now everything has been upended and future plans being completely rethought), and i'm in a state of nothingness. i've had a slight headache all day (and since i only started getting them a few years ago, i'm still not used to them) and i laid down for awhile, but i just feel like i'm floating through the day, just detached; i suppose this is what purgatory would feel like if it were real.

we're leaving in a few minutes to go borrow a car from my folks until we get another one. just when it seems we're getting ahead, we get blindsided. we've been playing musical cars the last few years, and chris' current car (Thor, the intrepid), thought we were playing russian roulette. wednesday night it died on his way home from kalamazoo. this time for good.

while we're learning that these repeated occurrences are merely God, disguised, teaching us something we just haven't gotten through our thick and stubborn heads, it's still what it is; frustrating, tiring and deflating.

a part of me enjoys having life shaken up like this...we always get jarred out of the ruts we were in, and the potential for positive change is exciting and refreshing.

ON A HIGHER NOTE....

our dear friend liz sold her house!! looking back, she's been there quite a while. I remember when she bought it, having vocal team meetings there, departing on her birthday treasure hunt, watching and LOVING :P "the grudge", embarking on top secret adventures, and many other memorable moments. i'm sure she will miss her pet skunk, taking care of her lawn, the filing system in her basement, and the hot tub. (well, maybe not the hot tub so much.......hehehehe)